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| Sunday, March 13th, 2005 | | 6:35 pm |
And I'm at home. Yes, it's only a short fifteen minute trip over from a world so different and independent of my life here, that is SMC, and that is awesome, but it's still home. For some reason, some people seem to think that the proximity somehow makes going home less exciting and less meaningful. Well, I beg to differ mostly because I rarely go home, and by rarely I mean I do my laundry here as needed. However, the argument is really that at any given moment with the silver bullet on campus I could get home if I really wanted to while my peers are stuck (does that word have a negative connotation?) and that may still apply. Anyway, it is odd to be home without my sister. My parents have lives of their own now, which once had an epicenter around her and I. My Mom has a full time job. She has never had a full time job for as long as I've known her, which is a noticeably long time. I know this place is my home and will forever be my home, but I strangly and awkwardly feel more like a visitor this time, and my sister a distance relative. Strange, man. Maybe it is because my room is an office and there isn't any milk in the fridge. I must also add that this computer is so old, like protocol, first machine taken out of the inventor's shop, keyboard more-so than a typewriter, white faded into a gross gray monitor, sounds more like a tractor running over a small animal than any kind of machinery, etc (-OLD-) that there is an annoying delay between my typing and the letters on the screen. It's quite annoying, yet interesting at the same time, to watch as the letters excitedly pop up on the screen seconds later with my fingers immobile waiting to see if I had made a mistake. ghost like. cryptic almost. almost. Also, the email doesn't work and any program opened with AIM might have a bit of a battle. Also it never shuts off. It's very strange in the sense that every time you turn it off, it magically comes back on again, as if it doesn't want to die and knows if it is turned off it will never come back on again. I think it knows. I tried to convince my folks to invest in a new computer, new technology out there etc, but they are so shy with their money (like me) they don't really know what they're missing out on anyway. Anyway, no florida plans for me, albeit I will do something fun. SPRING BREAK! HOLLA! | | Monday, February 14th, 2005 | | 4:55 pm |
so today is valentine's day, otherwise and less commonly known as singles awareness day. Usuaully, this might be something I would care about and possibly even complain about but not this year. I feel that just because I am not "with somebody" AS I am single (big surprise yes I know recover from the shock), which is of course frowned upon by our neat society. Well, no I'm not IN love with anyone, albeit I wish I was, but nontheless I do love a lot of people, especially here at smc, where I have made a lot of new friends very quickly (ummm that was really not suppose to come out all corny like.... why does that happen). I only wish that boys would stop buying me masses amount of candy on this hallmark holiday- oh wait... I gave sweets up for lent. I'm glad I did though, even if I had to resist the temptation from sean's vday candy contribution, tj's sweet treats from his xgirlfriend.... awkward, and the massive amount of cookies/candy my parents and grandma have sent me. Oh well. Life is sweet in other ways. Oh, I would also like to take this opporuntiy to thank jon t. for the lovely valentine that is also a very trendy and very fabulous tattoo. Yes. much love jon t. much love. Of course I am focusing way too much on anything as trivial as a holiday as fruity as valentine's day, but I have been bored lately so my mind has resorted to wandering to such matters. My classes are so dull right now, I can't believe it. I feel like I'm back in the seventh grade somethimes. Since I've taken AP stat, learning about the Mode, Mean, and Median in Psych Stat isn't much of a challenge, where as in int. french I'm learning how to congugate verbs I learned when I was 10.... oh but ex. life seminar is probably my hardest class where I write about my feelings and correct my two page Life of Pi essay that I wrote over break, again and again. Then in phil's problems, I sit among my sleeping peers reciting the plot of Phaedo in between extremely long periods of awkward silence. I feel bad for Peterson in this case, he's a smart guy but asking for 40 bored students if they have any thoughts of questions isn't the way to teach philosophy as it appears that the majority of kids don't care. Yeah yeah I know I shouldn't complain. I should be greatful to have so much time on my hands or even the opportunity to attend classes at all, but boredom is definitely my greatest enemy and paying (or someone.... vsac, smc, random scholarship ppl thinking their money wouldn't go to waste on a promising student such as myself, my folks, etc)$35,000 a year isn't exactly worth it. Sorry. But more seriously, What did Frankenstein say to his girlfriend? "Be my valenstein!" What would you get if you crossed a dog with a valentine card? A card that says, "I love you drool-ly!" What did one light bulb say to the other? "I love you a whole watt!" What did the pencil say to the paper? "I dot my i's on you!" Okay, sorry but I have one more thing to say. As everyone was recieving packages and flowers from loved ones today, I stood in line to recieve a package from my parents that contained nothing more than my watch, which yes was missed, but I live 2minutes from here, so why it was overnighted over I cannot understand, hehe how I love them so. oh yeah I also like cake, a lot. 36 days to go... holla! | | Monday, January 24th, 2005 | | 2:56 pm |
| | Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 | | 10:38 am |
If you don't want to read my venting, don't tune in to this one... Ever since I started reading Emma's War by Scroggins, I have not been myself. I don't understand how just one book can affect me so much, but it has. I honestly feel sick to my stomach whenever I think about what is going on in the world, especially now in africa. I want so desperately to make a difference, as cliche as that sounds. Yet, there is hardly anything I can really do to put a dent into the situation. It may sound corny but I have not been able to sleep. I just lie in me bed and think about all those hungry people, who really do have nothing. I think I have slept 10 hours in the last few days. I am so selfish and so guilty that it embarrasses me because I have so much. I don't really understand it. It could have just as easily been me who lived over oil and it been me who was kicked out of my home, on the run for life, hungry and scared. I am thankful that I will get a chance to go to Uganda and see for myself what is going on and how I can best help. I really am. It's impossible though, I can't just tell them what to do or how to live their lives. The American way might not be right for them. ERGGGG.... I could go on but I can't. It's just too sad right now. | | Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 | | 7:01 pm |
(THREE) NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. Jenn 2. Jakz 3. Chedder, Ro, Tank, Beffy, Jennage, Louise, JJ, Anne J. Esor, gov, Jennerater, Jo, and oh Dotty (that might have been more than three: great start J) THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. I can get along with nearly anyone anywhere 2. ability to work hard (oh the library... how I hate you so) 3. My natural hair color THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. I love chocolate way too much, it's very unhealthy 2. I can't sing a note or the right words to any song 3. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. Italian 2. Polish 3. German (je pense) THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. the inevitability of death 2. rollercoaster 3. clowns THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. laughter 2. clean socks 3. gum THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. ae sweatshirt 2. clean socks 3. one too many bracelets (which mick refers to as cluttered) THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 1. Playfulness and humor. 2. Passion. 3. Communication. (all stolen from a-izzle... ) TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: 1. I want to work at UPS 2. I love my friends and family more than anything 3. I think answering these questions is an awesome use of my time THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/or same SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. An everpresent, warm, sincere smile (very hot) 2. Eyes to melt my soul (hehe you know I have to make a reference to my soul somewhere here) 3. Arms to be held in (Amelia AND A-izzle wrote this and I kept it. These girls know what's up). THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. forget my faith 2. juggle (albeit I try) 3. eat a strawberry (yeah I don't know.... it's just one of those things with me I guess.... all those little seeds just do not impress me) THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. art (shhhh no one needs to know I wish to be crafty- the next martha maybe) 2. making movies/watching movies 3. unicycling THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. go sledding 2. make my dog feel better (she's sick!) 3. eat one of my frosted brownies which I made yesterday THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. Psychologist (ambigious?) 2. Dentist 3. Astronomer THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. Africa (specifically uganda) 2. Australia 3. Paris THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE: 1. Lynnea 2. Joshua 3. Brooke THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. get married 2. travel 3. write a good will | | Monday, January 10th, 2005 | | 9:01 pm |
This entry is dedicated to the lovely anna mac penoyar. Yesterday after taking an hour to decide what to do, we met up with Paulla to try on pretty dresses in "macys" well some more pretty than others. Check it: http://community.webshots.com/user/ayenenaie... then we met the fuckers... whoops I mean fockers, my mistake. Anna fell asleep. Paulla's sig. other decided to surprise us and show up at the movies scaring P to death! AH! No worries though. Turns out he was a lost boy and knows Atem, whose family I plan to meet when I go to Uganda. Small world. He was so happy to hear I was heading to africa and gave me a highfive. It was great, to say the least. I felt like I was actually doing something worth while for once. Okay and then we went to Als.... mmmm everyone should go there at least once, except on a school night, then no. Also captured on camera. Speaking of.... today we headed over to good ol'CVU highschool, which actually is brand freakin new and looks like it should be on TV: very save by the bell. It's completely re-done. I was lost and frankly, a bit scared. There was a new freshman wing called the "fishbowl" ummmmm don't ask and a line up of teal lockers and the cafeteria was new and bigger. I'd actually eat there, unlike my entire higshchool career when I didn't even step foot in that place. I mean, I remember eating all my lunches sitting on the floor and not thinkin twice about eating next to the boys smelly bathroom. The library was our once out door court yard and big and with new tables and chairs- a small detail which made a huge difference. OH and most importantly, four corners, now called seven pillars. A once high traffic area where every person in school once deemed to cross at the same time during the day is now a HUGE hallway, expanded in all directions with a new winding staircase. These details mean nothing to you unless you have experience the trama that was CVU, oh the horror that was. Note to all former students: go back and check it even if you hated CVU. It was just sooooo surreal it was redick. You can't even imagine. FOUR CORNERS?! Afterward Anna, who has never made a meal in her life outside of boxed mac and cheese, no offense girl- much love- but you didn't even know how to load the dishwasher haha, decided we should make dinner for her family, an experience taking any normal "single mother" a few minutes, took us under two hours, not including going to TWO grocery stores to get all proper ingredients for our mexican fiesta. (Aside: if you're out there brett, thanks for helping us with those chili peppers, they are tricky!) Even mr. foreman helped us with the chicken. It was an excellent meal though, I must admit. Her pa thinks we should start a business. "It was good," he remarks, "I had three." oh and ps: the potato movie turned out well. IM ayenenaie to see the movie. She won't think it's weird- trust me. It's worth it. | | Saturday, January 8th, 2005 | | 2:51 pm |
My day yesterday was very typical of this vaction. I wake up to the phone, being anna- she told me she was bored and on her way over. When she got here we took my baby dog Lucy for a walk and caught up on the finer aspects of our lives, including a current new love interest. Then we decided that we had to make a movie with a cast of potatoes, albeit lame, the show was a bust and we ended up eating the cast by making homeaid potato chips. The star, a bling bling homie-G potato man, surprisingly turned out to be a sweet potato. This is what we do. It is neat. Next, Mick picked me up for dinner with him and his WHOLE family at the American Flatbread restaurant where we had some amazing pizza, definitely worth mentioning. A perfect vermont treat of spiral ham, sharp chedder, leets, and apples. Oddly delicious. I'm pretty sure that his parents think we are getting married. We'll see. After, we headed to Rocky Ridge to sled- which I was super excited about since I haven't gone yet this season. We met up with anna, kyla, and doug, who is kyla's boyfriend from uvm. Anna, of course, lost her keys and we had to go back and look for them at 12 at night, but to no avail. We did find my bracelet though. This morning I went to a China reunion and met up with all my friends from the trip from last summer. It was good to see the crew again and exchange pictures. But it started snowing wicked hard (wicked... used correctly?) so we headed out and now I'm stuck at home. I'll probably end up playing my mom in scrabble later which is cool. | | Thursday, January 6th, 2005 | | 8:40 pm |
Last night I got home sometime after 10 after driving for three hours with patrick and kyle from Boston. It was great to see everyone again and I loved seeing the crawfords- my roommmate's pa is very cool and I have to give a shoutout to stacy. I really do miss my roommate a lot at home, she really is the best. We walked a lot, which I liked because I got to see the city, buildings, smog, well dressed people, and all! The T got stuck for a while underground but I wasn't scared. kyle and a-izzle joined me for an arousing round of 20questions, which admittedly was not fun. We ate a wide variety of good food- vermont deer eggs, fire and ice, a huge amount of pizza, one too many cupcakes, very tiny teddys, and mystery sauce on our pancakes (thanks guys) which katie and I discovered through a thorough investigation was probably fluff and chocolate...? I've discovered I'm not wild about skating or epic battles, oh and I have no idea what happened in the 90s except for Conan.... but in life it will appear as though I am winning until the end when a famous celebrity that is victoria the rockstar will take the cake. Oh, and apparently I have whore-like qualities........eerrrr. But overall, it was good times, mostly catching up with everyone again. Makes me really look forward to second semester, yeah joyce 4. Today I've discovered I have to read several books before the tuesday after I get back to SMC about Africa and write a paper about the Life o'Pi. Not cool man. Oh well. I'm looking forward to saturday, when my friends from my trip to china are all getting together for a reunion at the sheraton. Sidenote: I spend way too much time at the sheraton, prom, FBLA conference, cent. ball... I'm excited to see everyone again and show them my scrapbooks (lame, I know) and see what people have been up to. | | 8:10 pm |
So everyone cool in this world seems to have a live journal, or at least a Xanga, so I decided to join the in crowd and create the fabulous Jennarks account. I have a xanga, but that never really worked out- sorry roommate I tried but do feel free to check out my one thought provoking entry there. I'm not sure I completely understand the concept of this but I want to try it out anyway. You should always try everything at least once... |
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